25.6.06
7.6.06
12.5.06
break-up, shmeak-up. kelly clarkson was right!
almost 2 weeks to go, kids. 2 weeks. then i shall be a proto-design graduate for a month. i might make it to the end of year show in london this june (the lady that gave a portfolio advice seminar said i had to display my stuff in the west end).
also (the main point of this reluctant post): the new site is on the move - i just got the domain. it feels like my very own brand new apartment, with an amazing day-long visit to ikea to follow (and i get to go on all the kiddie hammocks and hanging chairs and crawl through the tents as per usual).
along with the new place, i will start screenprinting shirts on demand for selling purposes.
they are:
1. deery me
2. oakeydoke (f)
3. oakeydoke (m)
4. tweet twig
5. skinny beech
6. one stag army
7. hidden
8. birdie
now, back to work.
4.5.06
*** update!
this blog will be closing shortly.
why? because i am shedding the idle decaf activist skin and will be starting a new one, once the hiatus/absolute concentration on final project work concludes.
knock on my door if you want the new url, and i will send it to you once it's ready to go:
papersparrow at googlemail dot com
2.5.06
i'm going to have an emo cloud over me for a while.
it's on a string tied to my index finger.
my self esteem has been critically damaged by a demolition ball and i'm attempting to nurse it.
i need some time out from everything.
thank you for your patience.
see you.
ps. flickr is excluded from the hiatus.
1.5.06
of septic relationships: sometimes amputation is best.
i was surprised at the detection of a smile that had ventured onto my lips when i took my keys out to open the front door. on my way back home, i had undone my ponytail, my pace had picked up from lethargic foot-dragging to energetic strides.
i had been left with an inmense empty space in my mind, all the worry and doubts and frustration had been flushed away. i wondered what to do with it. i was reassured.
with a look in the mirror in the entrance, i checked it was really me and not someone else. i felt out of synch with the mascara smudges. i promptly cleaned them.
there is closure. there is release.
but if i am so relieved, why do i curl up and hurt so bad?
(now i'm angry. now i'm sad. now i'm laughing. now i'm crying.)
i had been left with an inmense empty space in my mind, all the worry and doubts and frustration had been flushed away. i wondered what to do with it. i was reassured.
with a look in the mirror in the entrance, i checked it was really me and not someone else. i felt out of synch with the mascara smudges. i promptly cleaned them.
there is closure. there is release.
but if i am so relieved, why do i curl up and hurt so bad?
(now i'm angry. now i'm sad. now i'm laughing. now i'm crying.)
29.4.06
they kick you when you're already down.
on my way back home, some guy shouted from a car passing by:
'yoooou'renotfiiiiit!'
well up yours, pallie.
sniffles.
27.4.06
26.4.06
25.4.06
dammit, jim!
a little morale booster i found during a game.

oh yeah. and today i got a (generous) lift to the apple people here in maidstone. they have confirmed the impending death of my ipod, only four months after the warranty expired. which is why i won't get a free replacement.
r.i.p. ipequeñita.
(i hate apple now. so much. you don't expect something that cost you almost 400 pounds to die on you after a year.)







